Reflections of a Fool
The seminar in Greece officially finished end of July. After a few weeks i am back in the area where the seminar happened and it's an excellent opportunity to reflect on the experiences of the seminar.
It was an amazing experience and i cherish every single moment of it. More than the place (which is a paradise on earth), what is far more important is the moments you share with the world around you, people, animals, nature, and what you bring to each other. Everything can be a teaching that will unveil a hidden part of yourself...if only you allow it.
For every new chapter to begin, another one must close. And it takes mastery to be able to close chapters in your life with grace. My friend, my brother, my most polished mirror in this journey of self-knowledge, David Verdesi, has been a teacher in this not only in words but most importantly in actions. An excellent swordsman can definitely yield the sword very skilfully, but what David has taught me is that it takes mastery to be able to put the sword down when the right time comes.
Intellect, the sword of wisdom, also has its time and place to be used. One can definitely be skilful at yielding this sword, but is no master until one learns to put it down at the right time. It is humbleness and love that teaches one to be able to let go your perceived source of power. But make no mistake, letting go doesn't mean foresaking your ability and knowledge. It just means that you stop going around life carrying the sword with you. Just as it would be ridiculous to go for a coffee or make love by carrying the sword with you, so it is with everything else. I am slowly learning to be a consciously deluded fool, at times letting go of my sword, my source of perceived power and smoothly gliding through life, sometimes with cries, sometimes with laughs...but always a superimposed awareness and consciousness that looks at myself and the divine leela (god's play) with a loving smile, tenderness and affection about what is and what we are.
I am back at the place where the seminar took place, and outside in the garden there is a little fountain around which we spent significant time drinking coffee, laughing and reflecting upon our experiences within the context of the seminar. A girl that works here told me that when the seminar finished and we left, this black fish manifested inside the fountain out of nowhere and all the staff were wondering whether any of them put the fish there. No one did. Within a few weeks the fish has changed colour and is now half-black half-golden. I don't know whether the manifestation of the fish was a causative result of our specific practise here or not, and frankly it doesn't really matter. What matters is the reflection upon the polarisation of life as an event, which manifests in the most amazing of conditions and places.
Just like the rising of the sun from the East is an event which is unmistakeable for even a blind person, so is with realising the nature of reality. The realisation of the beauty of life is an event that even when you are "blind", when it occurs it is unmistakeable. And then you laugh yourself like a fool, like seeing everything again for the first time, and you want to slap yourself for not being able to see it for all this time before. This appears, that appears...but all inherently part of the eternal flux, waxing and waning like the moon. Always there, always not there.
I leave you with some good vibes, a lot of Love, a small smirk on my face, a big smile in my Heart and some Pink Floyd lyrics
"Breathe, breathe in the air
Don't be afraid to care
Leave but don't leave Me
Look around and choose your own ground
For long you live and high you fly
And smiles you'll give and tears you'll cry
And all you touch and all you see
Is all your life will ever be"
- Pink Floyd, Breathe